Before I came to know Jesus, I was very rebellious and insecure. I was notorious in school. I lied to my teachers all the time and never did my homework. Once, I even falsely complained about a teacher, which resulted in that the teacher being transferred out of my school!
I came to know Christ when my best friend at that time kept on telling me about Jesus. Even though I kept insulting her, she never gave up. One day, she invited me to an apologetics class which explored questions like “Science and God”, “Who is God?”, and “Is the Bible true?” I became intrigued and was amazed at the answers. I subsequently attended church every Sunday. Over the weeks, though I found myself believing in Jesus Christ, my pride prevented me time and again from responding by raising my hand to indicate my decision. But finally I had to acknowledge that I had received Jesus into my life.
I used to be very abusive towards my sisters, and often beat and slapped them. Once, after I had become a Christian, I slapped one of my sisters in anger. Right after that, I felt no peace within for the next few hours. I prayed to God and He told me to apologise to my sister. I did. It was the first time in my life that I had apologised to her.
This and other incidents made me realise how wretched and selfish I really am inside. But God helped me see and understand that that is why I need Jesus. I cannot save myself from my own darkness. Jesus showed me that he loved me, and was not ashamed of me bearing his name as a Christian. Jesus is more concerned about my life and what he can do in and through me.
